Where He Leads, I Will Follow

 

Say hello to my beautiful babies. Caroline is four going on forty, and Anthony will be four months next week. These precious blessings from God are two big reasons I wake up every morning...why I am on this earth. I've always thought that one of the reasons God made me was to be a momma. I am a nurse by trade, but a momma by heart. But I have to confess something. I don't always appreciate the great blessing that is motherhood. I don't always greet my children with sunshine and smiles. Many times they've gotten frowns and scowls instead. I don't always bless their innocent ears with sweet words. Many times, I speak rashly instead of thoughtfully and fill their ears with words that are anything but sweet. I love being a mother. I truly do. And my children know it.  

But when I allow emotions of stress, frustration, and exhaustion to be my guide instead of looking to The One who heals us all, I blow it every time.  

When I try to get through the many steps of my day using my own strength instead of God's, it never works out.  

When I take for granted my relationship with God, my time with God, my day comes crashing down before it even has a chance to start. 

 I find myself doubting that I am the mom that God intended me to be. Did He intend for me to be a perfect mom who always has it right and ready without even looking as if she broke a sweat? No.

He intended for me to be a Godly mother.  

A mother who isn't only herself after God's own heart, but teaches her kids to be as well. A mother who is forgiving and patient with her children just as God is with her. A mother who treasures the innocence and individuality of each child, loving them for who they are right where they are in life...whether it is making home runs or striking out. That is the kind of momma I want to be. But I know I won't get there on my own. My Heavenly Father will lead me.

"Because of the Lord's great love, we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I say to myself, "the Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him." Lamentations 3: 22-24